Pregnant women, that is.
Big, pregnant bellies, facebook announcements, tiny little feet, perfectly healthy smiles.
And I hate it. I hate that it's not me. That should be me rubbing my belly. I should have been finding out if my baby was a boy or a girl. I should be planning the move to our bigger house. Because we needed a bigger house to fill with children.
They say "You already have 2 children, you should just be happy." or "You can try again! Don't give up." or "Time heals all wounds." or "Everything happens for a reason."
And to that I say "fuck off". But I don't actually say it. I smile and nod and agree. Because they don't know. They have never felt the ache. And I'm so happy for them. Truly, I am. I wish I wasn't a member of the "club".
I want to be able to show off my beautiful, pregnant belly to everyone; friends and strangers alike. But I know that if that were me, I'd just be making another mama like me feel the pain and heartache that I feel. So I'll just sit back and be jealous of their blissful ignorance.
- I am modern mom to two wonderful boys. I am married to my childhood sweetheart and love of my life. I am on a journey to wellness in my personal life and for my family as well. Why I Blog: I have found that writing in general is very freeing for me. I enjoy writing and the idea that other people are reading what I'm writing moves me. If even just ONE thing I post touches, moves, or helps another human in ways that I have been touched by bloggers, I am pleased. Blogging is my release. And once it's out there, it's free for anyone and everyone.